Monday, January 18, 2010

Brave or Crazy

I am either really brave or totally loon crazy!  I have created this blog to record my weight loss and healthier eating journey.  It's not just for me.  It's for the whole family.  Let me give you a little background on me...

From the time I was 12, I thought I was fat.  We are talking morbid obese here.  I truly thought I was as a whale.  At 13,  I was already 5'8" and not lacking in the chest department.  If I recall, I weighed all of 120 maybe 125 pounds.  Now at that height, that is probably underweight, but since most of my friends were 4 and 5 inches shorter and barely needing a bra, I thought I looked like a big giant ox next to them.

Fast forward to age 18 where I had reached my top weight of 189, but not my top height.  No, see in our family we grow until we are at least 20.  I finished at six feet.  However, due to a slight curve of the spine, and the fact that I slouch, I look more like 5'11".    I digress.  At 189, and needing the biggest size I had ever worn and shopping at the FAT stores, I was disgusted with my body.

The year I turned 21, my mom had here 30 year high school reunion.  Well, she had already started to lose weight and was getting thinner than me!  Well hey now, I want to do that.  What is your big secret?  Her big secret was Weight Watchers.  I gave it a whirl and lost 50 pounds.  I weighed  all of 135 pounds.  At my height that was too skinny.  But for the first time in my life, I didn't feel fat.  I was happy with who I was.  It didn't come easy either.  I exercised, was extremely disciplined about what I put in my mouth and kept a very strict food journal.  I maintained that too skinny of a body for 11 years.

Then we moved to VA and something happened.  Oh yeah, I remember.  Nutella. 
Ever hear of it?  Stay away.  It's pure evil.  It did me in.  I was getting cocky.  Thinking, I am doing fine.  Forget I am over 30 now, and have had two children.  I am still good.  My clothes still fit...for now.

By 2005 I weighed nearly what I weighed in high school.  I had finally given away all my skinny clothes.  After baby 3 was born, I lost the pregnancy weight but was no where near the body I once had.

Present time.  I have put on more weight since that monster sweet boy made his arrival.  My doctor is really getting on me about losing the weight.  I am reaching cougar status.  But the problem is, my metabolism moves about as quickly as a slug.  And my appetite seems to have increased to that of a buffalo!  So what is a girl to do?

Why start a blog of course!

So join me in my adventure as I try to change my eating habits, start moving more and attain a healthier body. 

I will post here on a weekly status.  I don't want to overwhelm myself with keeping up two full time blogs. Plus the progress will show better, and I can report how each week goes.

Comments and suggestions are not only welcomed, they are encouraged!!!

pounds lost: 0


Emmy said...

Good for you!! You can do it.

And I will do what I can to help and not bring over any treats :)

Carolynn said...

We did it together before, maybe we can do it together again.

When do we start our walks?

Froggylady said...

Good luck! I'm sure your body will get with the program and allow you to reach your goals!

mormonhermitmom said...

Well I don't have your height but I still have all the baby weight. The first half hour of my day is now exercise, although I probably need to do more than that to actually lose. I'll egg you on!

KK said...

Good for you! I'll try to eat better with you. That irritating metabolism thing is the problem. It is so much harder to loose weight the closer I get to 40, its not fair! At least we are all in it together!

Holly said...

You are brave. I keep thinking I am goignto start a separate blog for my own journey...but that's committing.

My metabolism sucks too...

You are right Nutella is the devil...YUM!

Denise Burks said...

What happened to us that our body image is so damn distorted?

I know it sounds crazy but I think the real key to health and wellness and beauty is that we learn to love ourselves the way we are. Who want to make beautiful food for a pig? We want to make beautiful, healthy, nutritous food for someone we value and respect and love.

You have a lovely writing voice. You can do this!

Thanks for sharing your story. It really inspires me to keep trying.


I wrote a piece about "I've always thought that I was heavy ..."

Dianna@KennedyAdventures said...

You go, girl! You might want to check out Samantha, who does Mama Notes. She has a 'Body after Baby' thing that I've followed before.

What is this Nutella business??